feel free to ignore this if it is too sad for u. it brought me down

I loved it when our conversations

were so pure and random.

We would laugh about nothing

and make fun of each other.

Our topics weren't fixed

nor stale and so not original

It was never revolving only

around certain people

with smiling faces we would laugh

at the screen and the others would know why were laughing

but now we just type "lol"

to hide our emotions

all the things we used to have

have been crushed and ruined, stained and destroyed

just like a twig slashing through a spiders web

cracked glass

stained white shirt

shattered chandelier

our fun and friendship

buried under the ruins of selfishness

selfcentered people, people who live to judge others, and to satisfy their feelings

people who only care about their own emotion

laughter, smiles, random shrieks, disses

we loved it, you betrayed it, abandoned it, and left us

you changed everything, all you

We used to be best friends ... supposedly forever

at the time we would do everything possible if one of us is in trouble

we were there when you needed us, but now apparently were trivial

oh so small compared to... that

now, laughter is a disguise

depression has become our permanent mood

our friendship bonding has become loose

and broke apart.

only a few strings are still attached

those made us reconsider

if the triangle still had three sides

whether you still deserve our attention

they all say that true friends can work out anything

now im doubting if were even true friends

i know that we are...

are you?

~Emily Tisweery

Crammed Inside

Everything has been. I need to talk. The other option was myself. I think I'll forgo that one.

It used to be so close. Tight. Best friends. Us three. And now? Cuz someone thinks that others are so important, they need to change.
Isn't that what they tell you not to do? To stay true to yourself?
Never mind. You missed the memo. Way back there.

There's no way you know that I'm talking about you now. No way at all. Cuz I've learned to hide it. Very, very well. It's one of those masks. My favorite's the one with happiness and an everything-is-just-fine way of doing things.

I find it pathetic. Be yourself. But nooo. They might notice, and not like it. And change it. I tolerated it for about a week. Then I hit breaking point. And I'm still on the edge.

I still find it pathetic.