I haven't posted in what seems like forever. And I just read Johnnie's poem. Uhh... wow. That was good. Incredibly good.

I just wanted to say something. If you don't know what I'm talking about, you can stop reading when ever you feel like it, since I'm not going into details.

Toothpick and Lindsay and Amy:

You guyz are awesome. I'm so sorry that I made you stress out; it's not fair that just because I was feeling deep doesn't mean I should've let my kinda (really) pessimistic attitude affect you. But you guys totally stuck with me. Thank you so much.

And that other time I should've put 'afk'? Really my bad. It's just a habit to be alone when I'm kinda...mad. With ice cubes. And a hard surface. Usually the wall in my backyard.

I know I haven't been myself lately, and I really don't know why. My other alternative is to go find a good book to read, but nothing out there has really caught my eye lately. (And noone reccomend the Twilight series lest I go mad.)

Shakespeare sounds good right now. Preferably something...tragic. Deep and dark. I've been tending to lean toward those. I have no idea why. Oooo. Othello. Or something where people die. Cleopatra? Hmm.

XOXO
Kitty

poem

I feel like
I’m hovering
Wandering
Knowing what I want
But still unfinished
Like there is something
More out there
I’m between what I know
And what I feel
And what they know
Surrounded on all sides
Yet with one open slit
Somethin’s gotta give
To get through
Something is gonna break
But I can’t stay much longer
I’ve gotta break out
Maybe I will go
Where? Where will I go?
Someday this will end
I’m dreading it
Do I find something better
Or just live with it?
In this hovering place
This wandering place
I’m dreading the
Inevitable
Pain.

comment please

so yeah whatever

so yeah whats up? i felt like we havent had alot to say so i thought that i would fill up the empty space with meaningless bander. so yeah.... ..... ....... oh!!!!! i know what i can say!!!!! ok so these arent my favorite songs but they are my favorite lyrics.

"Good Enough" by evanesence
Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you
Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,I feel good enough for you
Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself,
and I don't mind
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough
It's been such a long time coming,
but I feel good
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

its a really good song. look it up i also like this song:

"Lose Control" by evanesence
You don't remember my name
I don't really care
Can we play the game your way?
Can I really lose control?
Just once in my life,
I think it'd be nice,
Just to lose control just once,
With all the pretty flowers in the dust
Mary had a lamb
His eyes black as coals
If we play very quiet, my lamb,
Mary never has to know
Just once in my life,
think it'd be nice,
Just to lose control, just once
If I cut you down to a thing I can use,
I fear there will be nothing good left of you.

i guess my preppie friends would think it morbid but i think underneath we all feel this way. so yeah not my favorite songs, just my favorite lyrics. so yeah new post....woohoo.