O.O

Holy crap. If you are worth anything, go and read this one. It kind of responds to Johnnie's question, the one she called 'divine intervention', remember? But it's so... there isn't a right word. It invokes a feeling of pity, touched with wonder, and encases a humbling element I have never seen nor read before.

http://diebythrees.blogspot.com/2008/02/its-not-deathwish-its-fashion-statement.html

Call this a review. Maybe it is. It's up to you to decide. I call it amazing.

ATTENTION ORGANIZED CHAOS

just wondering but i somehow ended up with an extra yellow invite with the pretty sticker on it to the party that taylor passed out at the pizza party.

just wondering :)

btw ppl who didnt know

everyone at organized chaos ate at least 4 slices. with an exception of colin who ate a whole box of pizza.

11 people 50 something slices..

i think we broke the record :]]

ILY ALL

HEYYYYYY!!!

miss u all sry if i type wierd but mty right arm is messed up witrh an IV medicine pump and who knows what else!!!  and i have these stickers things on my chest!!! and the nurses freaked cause my breathing stopped...... not really but that is what they montior said... and then i ran down the hall liked jogged with all my wires and  got yelled at cause my artery could of brokkkee????  so ya pretty much hostpiles STINK!!!!!!!!!! and DONT try making an escape route doent work!!!!! ILY everyone!!!!

Cassie

For everyone who doesnt know :)
Cassie had her heart surgery today, and (if you havent talked to her) shes alive (which is a good thing) and is plotting a way to escape the hospital room
Our poster we made for her in Mr. A's class rocks, I cant wait till she sees it!!!
But anyway......
Apparently it doesnt hurt....and she can walk around now.
Now guess what Cassie's first words were after heart surgery....
her mom told my mom who told me...
First thing cass said when she woke up was..."Im hungry!"
LOL...I mean what a freak!! She just like almost died and is asking for food....JK ILY CASSIE!!!
Hahaha...anyway
WE <3 U CASSIE!! FEEL BETTER!

~Lindsay

AIMEE EXPERIMENT #1

for ORGANIZED CHAOS and anyone who wants to join

k so this is what the experiment thing is going to be

next wednesday

we all be who we are

no masks. dont pretend to be anyone else... dont try to like get involved w/ attention or anything

be who u are

lets see how it turns out

and see how different everyone acts...

if u cant, at least try

COMMENT AND POST WHAT U THINK OF THIS EXPERIMENT

non-serious post!!

Ok, since everybody has been postign such serious and deep postings lately (which i like) i decided ot lightnen things ups a little bit bit!! lol a couple things:

1. The pizza party today was awesome!! i had a blast!

2. I lovee the picture of us on the top of our blog!!!! it's awesome, kitty!!

3. meeting the new kids today was hilarious! they are so small! (even though they are only a year younger than me) my new legion people are prbbly totally freaked out by us! and jerme will forever be known as "jear bear" lol

3. THE PLAY!!! I LOVED IT! YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST ACTIORS IN THE WORLD!! i loved seeing it! you are superstars!!!

lots of love,
Cady

p.s. COMMENT!!

masks

so amy said something about masks when she commented on johnnies post, and i was thinking, what are people like when theyre not around us?
like what if outside of school maddie was like a juvenile delinquint or lindsay is a genious (no offense) cuz i know that i dont act the same at home as i do at school. and im pretty sure that some of the kids at are school who have way bad potty mouths dont swear around their parents. or some of the teachers even, like what if outside of school mrs. wright was a crazy heavy metal fan or a dare devil. get my point yet?

so anywho i was really just thinking but responde anyway!!!

maturity

sry if this is another post thats reallllly long unintresting and monotonous but i was just wondering this.

why do most people have emotional issues these days? i mean, people a grade lower are down to places wehre they CUT themselves, we dont but sometimes we have thoughts like those... the grade above us is like a combination of both...

is it some maturity thing?
well sure, im a year younger, but as you all say, im not as mature as the rest... but is immature a good thing?

lets see.

if you are mature, your probably serious about your emotions. if you are mature you prolly will take your lover, as a lover, not a toy that u play with then throw away after when your bored

if you are immature, you won't have to deal with these things. sure there can be some awkward moments... (SRY LINDSAY) but those can be fun. some awkward moments are just plain awkward.. no matter what happends to me, or anyone who caused it. no one is ever that desperate...

so im wondering if we are actually more immature than the grade below us.

or is it the ideal thinking of what a real relationship is?

some people... (strangely) think that their relationship is going to go smoothly with out any slightest bumps in the road and is going to last forever.

ik this is reallllly random

and i went off topic a lot

and its pretty pointless

BUT PLZ COMMENT

ILY ALL

pure inspiration

ok dont laugh. i have just receive pure inspiration. it was almost like divine intervention. (not really but yeah)

tonight i read every single blog on our list. every single one. almost all of them that have recent posts are kind of emo. well emo is a bad word but kind of depressed or "something is wrong in my life". it got me to thinking.

almost all of us have written a poem or story or even have just written it down something that says "i am not good enough" or "life sucks" or even "life would be easier if i was dead."
now, whether or not we mean these things i dont know. i know i have meant mine. at this very point in time as i am snarfing my pizza and typing with greasy fingers, i feel some sort of inner turmoil. something is always wrong inside of me. i know that most of us feel this way. we feel that we fight and we fall and we get up and try our best but we always fall. this is life. we feel that we have too much to handle. we feel that we worry about too much trivial things. we fight within ourselves constantly.

ok here is the point of real inspiration:

are we all the same? most adults would tell us "no! all people have a different purpose and we are all different." or something along those lines. and yes. in my opinion they are half right. we are different. i have different hair color than my friend. i have different color of eyes. i have different talents. i enjoy different things.
now this is where i disagree with myself. yet inspite of all these differences, we are the same. almost to the exact thought. we constantly feel the same things. we feel inadequate. we feel suicidal. all the people my age are almost exactly the same feelings-wise as me. yet why do we feel so alone? why do we constantly feel that we are unsure of ourselves and our friends and our entire lives? we all feel this way. we feel it at different times and to different extents, but feel it we do.

why do we feel this way then? when i break apart and lose myself my parents always ask, "do you feel inadequate? do you feel suicidal? do you hate yourself?" for the most part sometimes this is true. yet the next day i put on my mask and i go about my day hiding it. but i know that we all feel the same! we are so tempremental! we hate, we love, we loathe, we laugh, we cry. is it the way we live? the chemicals floating through our minds and bodies are the same. we do the same thing day after day after day. we hide and we shrink away. we close. why is this? why in the world do we feel this way? \

does this mean at some point in our lives we are emo? or whatever you call it. does that make us cutters when we enjoy hurting ourselves? are we all at some point cutters?

if you have any answers or comments please say so. again this is not meant to be offensive. just my thoughts and feelings.

Boring

Ok so I havent posted for a while so here is recent news:
Today we had an orchestra rehersal 4 festival and Kelli, Hailey and I really wanted to walk home..but my dad wouldnt let us so we begged him to take us to QT which he surprised us all and actually did....yummy....lol.....thats my daddy.....very.......hmm laid back?
Lets see......today is the first day in like 43957489349 years I havent played soccer.....but I'll prolly kick a ball around in my backyard still. Tragicly my traveling soccer season is over -emotional breakdown- GO CROSSFIRE!! See everyone next season...ILY ALL!
What else.....well like my fish had babies again....but there was like some disease in there tank so a few died and a few were born, so the balance of life is ok..i guess..lol
Wow...life is pretty boring at the moment.....
[A little later]
Mmkkk I just heard about Kassidy and trents juggling record for soccer....and ima going to go play soccer until i can at least get a hundred.....be prepared for a funeral.....

My Random Photo Editing for The Day

Haha yes I was bored.

XOXO ILYA kitty

flirting

i know this title doesn't seem very deep... BUT it actually is. ok so, i was talking to my cousin over the phone and he was also chatting with his girlfriend. i read their chat and he was OBVIOUSLY flirting. so then we got into a very deep and analyzed convo of... the topic... flirting.

This is what we came up with.

Flirting = making deeper friends, getting major attention on purpose, just to attract the person whom u like/love

Usually, normal people, flirt like this:

they try to prove to the person they like that they are stronger, better, and try to become more attractive for them.

they try to change their inner personality for the person they like JUST to make him/her like them

when your around your friends, you can't stop talking about him/her

you cant stop thinking about him/her

my cousin taught me a lot hahahaha

COMMENT

you guys r awesome!!

I have been really bored this morning, so i was looking around at some other blogs and stuff like that. i realized that ours is one of the only blogs out there that isn't filled with half-emo stuff. I'm not trying to offend anyone, i just realized how lucky we are! everybody always seems happy and we seem to skip all of the drama. we laugh together instead of cry! we don't gossip about each other or be mean. (except the occasional annoyingness) :) ily u, organized chaos!!

~cAdY

Posting for the Sake of Posting

Ahh, yes. The Playoffs. Sixteen teams fighting for a title. Some people get hurt in the process, all for the shiny gold trapezoid w/ a miniature basketball on top. Sounds fun.

[me messing around w/ the font stuff]

I like italics.
Be bold.
Make your point.

ilya
Kitty

ugh. i need to vent...

ok so my sister is being so rude! she is totally crude and just ack! its like no matter what i do she still hates me. she hates everything i do and she totally just hates everything about me. i cant talk to her. she will just say something rude like "i will pay you a dollar if you never talk to me again." or "if i never have to talk to you it would be heaven." she just makes me so mad!!! then she will say "why do you hate me?? you are so rude! i would never do that to you!! but you do it to me!!!!" and so on and so forth. i just want to rip my hair out!!! any advice? please comment!

NO!

OMG! i get my surgery this coming friday!!! april 25TH!! AHH NOO!!:'( :'( :'(.. well at leaste i will not have to take my inhaler and like like not beable to breath at swim!:D

poor... rich?

ok so u all know me as... well today i didnt eat lunch cuz i didnt have money... i havent been eating as much candy cuz i dont have money.. but thats just in New York... In china, on the other hand... i have 5000 yuan. soo im leaving for china in the summer.. just comment and i'l read what u want. plz dont leave me broke! TY btw this is just for organized chaos... ILY ALL

btw im visiting japan too... so ... just fyi

poem (sadly not mine i found it on the internet)

ok so i found this poem and i just loved it! i thought it was really inspriational (sp?) well anyways here it is:

Life is too short
Grudges are a waste of happiness
Laugh when you can
Apologize when you should
And let go of what you can’t change
Love deeply and forgive quickly
Take chances, give everything and have no regrets
Life is too short to be unhappy
You have to take the good with the bad
Smile when you’re sad, love what you’ve got and always
Remember what you had.
Always forgive and never forget
Learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change
And things go wrong but always remember
LIFE GOES ON!

so yeah i just thought that it was really cool. i have it for my signature on my email. so boo yah! toodles!

Tutoring

MR.A'S AP PRE-CALCULISTS HW caused... a... TUTORING CLUB

Tutors: ME, KITTY

Costumers: LINDSAY, TOOTHPICK, SEAN, MADIE

did we help? YES WE DID. and we share emotions with the costumers... so if ur frustrated were more frustrated b/c we have to explain it to you.

haha for more info ask kitty and lindsay

CONGRATULATIONS

I would like to extend a formal congratulations to our math teacher, Mr. A., for succeeding in the very difficult task of managing to get almost everyone in my math class (and others) to log into our instant messanger and not talk about anything but math. Takes talent, doesn't it?

If you guys have any time, take time to read some of this blog: http://diebythrees.blogspot.com/.

She has some pretty awesome stuff in it; I'm not even sure awesome is the right word. Just check it out. It's also on the top of the list of our most-read blogs in the sidebar, so you don't need to find this post every time just for the link.

And oh my gosh, I see danger! STOP, DROP, AND ROLL. This usually applies to certain redheaded people that Lindsay flirts with in AP Chemistry. Ahem.

ILYA: Kitty

P.E.

Ok so today in PE, you know how we had a sub? And we had to run? So Lindsay, Kat, Taylor, and I all have the same PE hour and were dreading it. So, we decided to make things a little more interesting by trying to get out of it(i guess..) Everytime we would walk/run by the sub Lindsay would cough and we would make comments about her asthma like, "Are you okay? Did you bring your inhaler? What you didn't?" or, "Remember last time you ran and you passed out and your mom had to come?" It was hilarious. Then, we would trip or just "have to tie our shoelaces" when we were in the shade. Maylynn, Sarah, and Cassidy joined in with us too. It was awesome! Oh, and at point, Lindsay pretended to faint, expecting one of us to help her up, but we didn't, so Lindsay was lying on the ground while we were supposed to be running. So ya, that was our PE experience...

The coincidence....

Ok so like today
Kat went out for a run...and I went out to the park to play soccer and coincidently....hahaha......we ran into eachother.....lol....so we played some soccer and then got ambushed my a group of little neighboor boys with airsoft guns....i have like holes/welts all over me from the war we had and ima sure kat has some to, even tho i think i might have been the one they were aiming for. Kat and I defended ourselves by kicking soccer balls at them, which we succeeded. Eventually they gave up and surrendered, even tho they had guns and 387973 more ppl then us....lol

I haven't posted in what seems like forever. And I just read Johnnie's poem. Uhh... wow. That was good. Incredibly good.

I just wanted to say something. If you don't know what I'm talking about, you can stop reading when ever you feel like it, since I'm not going into details.

Toothpick and Lindsay and Amy:

You guyz are awesome. I'm so sorry that I made you stress out; it's not fair that just because I was feeling deep doesn't mean I should've let my kinda (really) pessimistic attitude affect you. But you guys totally stuck with me. Thank you so much.

And that other time I should've put 'afk'? Really my bad. It's just a habit to be alone when I'm kinda...mad. With ice cubes. And a hard surface. Usually the wall in my backyard.

I know I haven't been myself lately, and I really don't know why. My other alternative is to go find a good book to read, but nothing out there has really caught my eye lately. (And noone reccomend the Twilight series lest I go mad.)

Shakespeare sounds good right now. Preferably something...tragic. Deep and dark. I've been tending to lean toward those. I have no idea why. Oooo. Othello. Or something where people die. Cleopatra? Hmm.

XOXO
Kitty

poem

I feel like
I’m hovering
Wandering
Knowing what I want
But still unfinished
Like there is something
More out there
I’m between what I know
And what I feel
And what they know
Surrounded on all sides
Yet with one open slit
Somethin’s gotta give
To get through
Something is gonna break
But I can’t stay much longer
I’ve gotta break out
Maybe I will go
Where? Where will I go?
Someday this will end
I’m dreading it
Do I find something better
Or just live with it?
In this hovering place
This wandering place
I’m dreading the
Inevitable
Pain.

comment please

so yeah whatever

so yeah whats up? i felt like we havent had alot to say so i thought that i would fill up the empty space with meaningless bander. so yeah.... ..... ....... oh!!!!! i know what i can say!!!!! ok so these arent my favorite songs but they are my favorite lyrics.

"Good Enough" by evanesence
Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you
Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,I feel good enough for you
Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself,
and I don't mind
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough
It's been such a long time coming,
but I feel good
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough
Am I good enough for you to love me too?
So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

its a really good song. look it up i also like this song:

"Lose Control" by evanesence
You don't remember my name
I don't really care
Can we play the game your way?
Can I really lose control?
Just once in my life,
I think it'd be nice,
Just to lose control just once,
With all the pretty flowers in the dust
Mary had a lamb
His eyes black as coals
If we play very quiet, my lamb,
Mary never has to know
Just once in my life,
think it'd be nice,
Just to lose control, just once
If I cut you down to a thing I can use,
I fear there will be nothing good left of you.

i guess my preppie friends would think it morbid but i think underneath we all feel this way. so yeah not my favorite songs, just my favorite lyrics. so yeah new post....woohoo.

INTRO TO CADY

lol, yes she's blonde...
17 and yes lives w/ us in new york...
one of the smartest blondes i have ever seen...
she's like a prodigy if you compare her with lindsay
she's VERY nice
but if you bug her she will take a gun and point it at ur head. be careful.. jkjk ILY CADY
lol. she is ... once again, a big part of our lunch table. :]]

cady's first post

Ok guys, this is probably going to be a really stupid post because I am just trying this out!! :) I can't believe school's going to be over in 6 weeks! I remember when I was a 6th grader still deciding if I actually wanted to go to this school. I am soooo glad I decided to go! I am so lucky for all the new friends I've met! You guys rock and you better all stay at this school next here! Ily all!
<3
cAdY

MY LOGO!!!

ok so i have always said that my logo is a questionmark because that pretty much sums me up, im a mystery?! but i found this picture and adopted it as my new logo?!

My Phone Convo With Lindsay...And My Apology

Alas! My first post!! AHHH! (sorry, spastic moment)

okay, so i decided to dedicate this one to linday, who was searching for....pants....while i was talking to her.

Lindsay,

I am SOOOO sorry for giving you an AWESOME makeover in legion time the other day. i mean, i think we all figured out that green is your color....pink works too! I am sooooo srry, really. So please, please, PLZ forgive me!! lol. ILY LOTS.

~ARIEL~

i feel it my duty to clue you in......

so, lets get right into this.
if you havent already noticed, we are dorks! we tend to always make fun of each other (CONSTANTLY!!!) and we always are happy to see each other. i swear we are seriously like brothers and sisters. (and they annoy me as much too!!! jk jk i love you guys!!) we laugh, we cry, we give advice, we share inside jokes, and i think we truly love each other. so hence the name organized chaos. we are such a bundle of nerves and hyperness, its constant chaos. but we still love each other and put up with each other and we still smack each other on the head occansionlly when we are annoyed. haha! so we are Organized Chaos. we are a bundle of nerves and we are all very annoying. and this blog is dedicated to us. Organized Chaos. grrrrrr.... aimee says. hahah jk jk jk jk i love you aimee!!!!

chaoticly yours,
JoHnNiE

For All Those People Who Don't Know Yet...

TOOTHPICK ASKED LINDSAY OUT. jkjk. That's not it.

T.A.L.K. has officially become the blog of the organization known as Organized Chaos. For those of you that are slightly oblivious, or have never read any of the previous 71 posts, Organized Chaos is the lunch table that consists of: Johnnie Winter, Nirk, Cadylady, Aimee, Kitty, Lindsay, Ariel, and Goofygurl.

Yes, that means we have that many authors. This should get interesting, shouldn't it?

Just thought that any person that read this blog should know of this update. :]

ILY
kitty

My New Hair color :)

Ok, so I havent really posted in a while so I decided to do so :)
Today (like everyother day this week) has been testing....(Ima not going to say what the test is called cuz then stalkers could find us, and so ya.....) But anyway it was horribly boring, and like seriously, theres only so much to stare at on Mr. Meltons walls. After we finished testing, Taylor brought up commercials so I kinda started to sing the free credit commercial, pretty quiet like, but anyway Madie and taylor started cracking up and then the whole class got really quiet, and started listening to me.....so I stopped.
The ppl in my class then proceded to make me start over from the beggining, so I sang it loud and clear, then taught the lyrics to everyone. (Madie, Taylor, and ok me to, now have an obsession with this song.
Hmm....what else happened today...??
Oh ya....the semi food fight at lunch today. I thought the cheeze stick I had tasted gross, so I started throwing it at ppl, and then Kat, who was high on like air threw a nutograin bar at amy and she caught it in her mouth. It was AMAZING
Also today I have become non-blonde....yes thats right I have green/pink/red/blonde hair because Madie, and Lindsay O. became bored with the poster they were coloring and transfered their creative juices to my hair, and colored my hair with washable markers (its ok guys, the color is ok ...besides the green dot...lol jk its all good) but if I get dress coded tomorow....meet me in that dark alley way behind the school....dundundun...jk
ILY ALL
<3 Blonde/green/pink/red One :)

See It To Believe It

Today's "You Should've Been There Moment":

We were at lunch, and I was eating a granola bar (the one that Lindsay had put in the "sacrifice pile"). I ripped off a piece, and was joking around (a.k.a. high on some random substance, most likely sugar), so I said to Aimee (who was sitting diagonally across the table from me), "Let's see if I can throw this into your mouth." So she agrees and opens her mouth really wide. I just chuck the piece of granola bar at her (just kind of a random throw. Like, a swing-arm-and-let-go deal), and

I MADE IT IN!!!! WOOOOOT!!!

It was totally funny, but I guess some people would have to see it to believe it, cuz I know my aim is not exactly famous for being accurate.

But from now on, BEWARE OF THE RANDOM GRANOLA BAR PIECE.

Bizarre Murder Mystery

so some peoples were wondering if this story was true and it was and if you need some proof, this was a caption by the article:

[This is truly an unbelievable twist of fate! At the 1994 annual awards dinner given for Forensic Science, AAFS President Dr. Don Harper Mills astounded his audience with the legal complications of a bizarre death…]

my worst injury ever

ok so during spring break of the third grade, we were building our house and there were all these dogs just roaming around. (in my neighborhood people just let their dogs run loose. creepy i know.) so we were building our house and my cousins were over and my grandpa and my dad were working on the tile. well my mom was gone and my dad left to go get some more supplies. while he was gone i decided to check and see where these dogs had come from. one came right up to me and was licking me. i knelt down to check tags and he turned his head and bit me right on the face. i had to have 12 stitches right below my right eye and i had a bloody scratch down my cheek and some bloody scratches on my chin. i still have a scar below my eye. its awesome!!!!! and the dog's name is charlie and he still lives in my old neighborhood. its really scary when i go down there and i see him. well thats my worst injury ever!

Bizarre Murder Mystery

ok, so my brother showed this to me and i thought that id post it for everyone to see. its awesome!


On March 23, 1994 the medical examiner viewed the body of Ronald Opus and concluded that he died from a shotgun wound to the head. Mr.Opus had jumped from the top of a ten-story building intending to commit suicide. He left a note to the effect indicating his despondency.

As he fell past the ninth floor his life was interrupted by a shotgun blast passing through a window, which killed him instantly.

Neither the shooter nor the deceased was aware that a safety net had been installed just below the eighth floor level to protect some building workers and that Ronald Opus would not have been able to complete his suicide the way he had planned.

"Ordinarily," Dr Mills continued, "someone who sets out to commit suicide and ultimately succeeds, even though the mechanism might not be what he intended, is still defined as committing suicide."

That Mr. Opus was shot on the way to certain death, but probably would not have been successful because of the safety net, caused the medical examiner to feel that he had a homicide on his hands. The room on the ninth floor, where the shotgun blast emanated, was occupied by an elderly man and his wife. They were arguing vigorously and he was threatening her with a shotgun. The man was so upset that when he pulled the trigger he completely missed his wife and the pellets went through the window striking Mr. Opus.

When one intends to kill subject "A" but kills subject "B" in the attempt, one is guilty of the murder of subject "B."

When confronted with the murder charge the old man and his wife were both adamant and both said that they thought the shotgun was not loaded. The old man said it was a long-standing habit to threaten his wife with the unloaded shotgun. He had no intention to murder her.

Therefore the killing of Mr. Opus appeared to be an accident; that is, assuming the gun had been accidentally loaded.

The continuing investigation turned up a witness who saw the old couple's son loading the shotgun about six weeks prior to the fatal accident. It transpired that the old lady had cut off her son's financial support and the son, knowing the propensity of his father to use the shotgun threateningly, loaded the gun with the expectation that his father would shoot his mother.

Since the loader of the gun was aware of this, he was guilty of the murder even though he didn't actually pull the trigger. The case now becomes one of murder on the part of the son for the death of Ronald Opus.

Now comes the exquisite twist. Further investigation revealed that the son was, in fact, Ronald Opus. He had become increasingly despondent over the failure of his attempt to engineer his mother's murder. This led him to jump off the ten-story building on March 23rd, only to be killed by a shotgun blast passing through the ninth story window. The son had actually murdered himself so the medical examiner closed the case as a suicide.

"Lest awe should dwell
And turn your frolic to fret
You shall look on my power at the helping hour
But then you shall forget!

Forget, forget!

Lest limbs be reddened and rent
I spring the trap that is set
As I loose the snare you may glimpse me there
For surely you shall forget!

Helper and healer, I cheer
Small waifs in the woodlandwet
Strays I find in it, wounds I bind in it
Bidding them all forget."

- Kenneth Grahame, The Wind in the Willows

stupid stupid stupid

im so confused!!! guys are so complicated! i know we love 'em girls, but sometimes its really not worth it!!!! ok so i like(d?) this guy. but around his friends he was such a different person. it was really hard to be around him. now i have got a great guy who is obsessed with me. but i love him like a brother. (i think?) and people tease me about both guys!! its so....ugh! i think that the first guy is over me. but i already hurt him so much by trying to get out of it. i dont think i like him anymore. but i dont like the other guy either. so at this point, i dont really like anyone. now i think im going to live like a hermit for awhile and just think. if you have any idea what im talking about, please just leave me alone. i hate being teased for liking a great guy that you dont know anything about. and please dont tease me about the other guy either. me and him have worked it out, and when we are teased, it gets really awkward between us. he is my best friend and i dont want to hurt him and i dont want to be hurt. so again if you know me and know what im talking about, just leave me alone about it. if you have absolutely no idea who i am or what im talking about, some advice would be nice.

(im really considering becoming a nun and having no guys around whatever!)
(a hermit wouldnt be so bad either)
~JoHnNiE <3 <3 <3

worst injury

i was 6 months old... my mom dropped me down the stairs.. i rolled and cracked my head open.. (i didnt know this would happen) ya. then i went to the doctor and he said it wouldn't affect my health when i'm older.

AIMS THEME

THE WORST INJURY YOU HAVE EVER GOTTEN. (lindsay we dont want stories we want ONE story.)

TOOTHPICKS EMBARRESSING MOMENT

he tried to hit a basketball with a baseball bat. then it rebounded on his face thats why there were beautiful little stitches on his eye brow and he almost decided to ditch theroming the next morning.

not very embaressing huh... ya the other one he told me was when he fell into the pool... i dont believe he has a perfect life w/ out embarressing moments but... ok lol

IF YOU WANT MORE OF HIS EMBARESSING MOMENTS. GO ASK PETER HIS PARENTS HIS SISTER OR HIS DOG. GRETA

My Embarassing Moment

Whoaaa......like i have wayyy to many to count.....but I'll list a couple that happened recently.
1. Ok so on Friday Kat came over to my house and we played soccer for live ever! So i decided to try to do this backwards kick thing, and I nailed the trick.....the only problem was that I nailed my face realllllllly hard as well!
2. Twice in one week before spring break I gave myself a bloody nose....it was horrible! lol
3. In my game yesterday one of my teammates kicked the ball REALLY far up in the air, so i figured if i started running than i could sprint and score....well one problem...the ball hadnt hit the ground yet, so i started running and the ball hit me in the back of my head....HARD! It was soooooooooooo horrible everyone was laughing at me! (i was laughing to, but it was nervous laughter)

Wow...
just noticed
all my embarassing moments involved soccer balls......does that mean something....hmm....??

living with Trent...dun dun dun

Ok so sry this isnt really on topic....

So, on Wednesday Trent comes over and basically lives for me for 4 days cuz his parents r in Washington looking at a college for his brother. So, the first day i really cant remember what happened we like played soccer after school. O but trent is obsseded with country music, esspecially this one song by like Josh Turner. HE PLAYED IT THE WHOLE FREAKING TIME HE WAS AT MY HOUSE!!! so now i know like the whole song.

Then on Thursday we played soccer again with Conner ). and we got thirsty so i brought out this 2 gallon Gatorade thing and we drank it ALL in like 10 minutes.Then Trent was watching this perverted like YOutube video thing and kept saying the lines to ppl on gtalk. (Sorry to ever it was offensive to we were both being pretty dumb that night). Then later Trent broke the door to the bathroom and i went in and i got locked in for like 15 minutes cuz i couldnt open the hacking door.

Then on Friday, my mom had this party for like all the ppl in high school and my friend Zane came over and we just like took over the tire swing and idk y but it was like so fun!!! and we were like all high of of something but i dont know what. So we tried to pull off an all-nighter...it didnt work we went to bed like at four. Saturday came, we slept in til like 11 then went and played raquet ball at the freestaone rec center. I was weird we saw like 4 girls fro GCA (Casey S., some gril i didnt know but i recognized, Kelli, and Molly B.) Then he left, it was almost a joyful moment in a way...jk.

So, thats the 4 days with Trent story...

EMBARRESSING

k so i was at this museum, listening to my headphones that they gave out... and you know when you have your ipod and start singing and it is dead silent in the room so everyone hears you? Ya. so i was the only one with head phones (except for my family) there, so there was music and words and i thought this was reallly boring and it was dead silent there... so i was like "WELL THIS IS STUPID" really loud... then the manager heard and i got myself a lecture for it... after that i left the museum i went to the gift shop and i kind of got lost... so i called this realllllllly tall korean woman with HUGE hoop earrings .. mommy.. actually i kinda like hugged her in the back and yelled "MOMMY!!!" she turned around and glared at me... it was REALLy awkward because she was this guy at my elementary schools... mom. this happened last year... 6th grade when i was 11 or twelve.. yup and if u want any mor of my embarressing moments ask anyone that are authors of this blog :]]

ILYYYYY

embarressing moments

erica, this is for you. hahahah jk jk

well my most embarressing moment would probably have to be.....hmmm.....hmmmm.......oh i know. ok so once i was camping with my sister and some friends (they were all older than me) and they were teasing me and playing pranks on me all day. so as im sitting by the campfire, they grab a hunk of leaves and throw them on my head! i was so mad! they started to laugh like crazy and ran for their lives. so i thought that i would give them a taste of their own medicine. so im chasing them and i grab a hunk of leaves to throw at them. all of the suddent they start screaming their heads off!!! (it was like a demented hysterical laughing scream) and i look at the hunk of leaves in my hand and there wasnt just leaves in it. unknowingly i had grabbed a hunk of dog poo too!!!!!!! i start screaming and throw it on the ground. they are literally rolling on the ground laughing. i start crying and ran for my life towards the bathroom. they still tease me about it. and guess what age i was when this happened? i was 12!!!!! it was horrible!!! so that is my most embarressing moment.

sincerely,
JoHnNiE <3 <3 <3

THEMES

ok so... i've decided that we would have a theme for every week...
pretty much every person who is in this blog thingy, has to share a story... of their life! so you can get to know them better...
this week's story is...
EMBARRESSING MOMENTS
i know that every one of us has embarressing moments so, enjoy... :]]

now let us stay on track.. shall we?

this post was not meant to offend anyone... so if you get offended.. i am SO sorry, i'll give u candy another day. but this is the point im trying to make

The point of making this blog:

When i first started making this blog, (while lindsay was cleaning out her fish tank), i thought that making T.A.L.K was a great idea because... 1. we got to post our feelings and thoughts, yes even if its depressing its a good way to vent and let out anger instead of throwing ice at walls (which is satisfying too) but i hit the neighbors dog the other day. If you don't want to read the posts on here, its completely up to you, but the fact that people post their feelings on here, its not wrong.

What we should do:

I really don't want this thing to get TOO big, but since we added Johnnie and Nirk, majority rules... just pick a time when im not to lazy. and make sure its only OUR lunch table. the people who have been sitting at our lunch table from the beginning of the school year... of course i don't count since i made this :]] ILY ALL, till now are all qualified to be here. other wise, im sorry, i cant add too many people or else i'll have to start a new one.

Poems:

Feel free to post ANY of your poems, just make sure that it doesn't violate any of our bloggie rules. i forgot to mention that if you make fun of any of the poems (in a mean, not playful way) we will ban you.

Venting:

I know that all of us, (yes including me and kitty) had major emotional break downs before. and its ok, just make sure you don't turn something really small to a huge deal (what i did) and like break down till midnight still crying hysterically. Right now, we have started a venting business... Kitty, our psychologist/counsler, is in charge of cheering u up (guiding you through ur hard times.) if you just need to vent... find kassidy (toothpick), he will be in charge of the line... which will be leading to me. Aimee, your personal punching bag.. its just publicly used.

FEES: none for kitty, just sign up w/ toothpick, if you are very hurt, or emotionally unstable, it would be free to go punch aimee, but if your just faking and want to hurt someone.. it will cost 2 bucks per punch. also, i have the right to duck.

if that doesn't work, we will lead you to a room, where all of us will be in there. there will be a TON of blonde moments coming from lindsay, and hysterical laughter coming from aimee kitty and possibly toothpick... but if all of you are fine.. lindsay will be playing sims 2 or soccer, kitty and me will be working on bloggy thingy, playing sports, or doing something else, and toothpick.. he has a life dont worry.

ILY ALL

(if ur offended DONT HURT ME)

-aimee-

Basket-Occer

That bball game was fun. But I still just wanna play soccer with Lindsay. We've both had really random urges to kick a ball around for some reason this whole week. Maybe a side effect of the whole "emotional-breakdown-a-day" thing? Hmmm. Questions, questions, questions.

I think the guys at our school don't think we can play bball. Maybe we're not as good as them, but yes we know we're supposed to catch the ball. The older-grade people that I played with weren't that bad. They just had an annoying habit of completely pushing me out of the way. And Mr. A nearly landed on me, like what, twice? And believe me. Seeing this 6-foot-somethin' guy coming down on you is enough to make anyone kinda scared.

I wonder if we could just scrimmage at like, a random park someday? Boys vs. Girls. I know that would end up being like, three on fifteen, but I think Toothpick's skills make up for most of it. And the height of our team. (NO OFFENSE AIMEE OR ANYONE ELSE)

OMG I seriously need to kick a soccer ball right now; my leg is like, twitching. But I have noone but the wall to kick it to. Hmm. Maybe I should make friends with my neighbor's 16-year-old brother that's been on Arsenal for as long as I can remember? Tough desicion.

So I guess life has been like, totally down the past couple of days, but believe it or not, we got over it pretty fast. Faster than I thought. Who would ever know?

In seventh hour, Lindsay braided my hair into two braids, and I swear I looked like a kindergartener. Yeah, it was "cute". As in preschool-cute. There are reasons why I always put my hair up.

Circle of love, peoples, circle of love.
XOXO
kitty

Eternal Embarassment

Unfortuatly you guys wont see me around much anymore......Im too ashamed to show my face in public after loosing the Basketball game to the teachers!!! WE WERE KILLED BY THEM!!!!!!!
At the end we lost by 9 or 10....but there was major difficulties at the score board (cuz the sevies messed it up) so we could have lossed by more.....
We did have some team difficulties seeming as some of the doods had ego problems and refused to pass it to us girls...ugg....i wanted to smack a couple of them! IF we would have gotten the ball, we would have kicked there butts (thats why we lost)
There was also the fact that they had Mr. Aston who could very easily play in the NBA (no joke!)
He could have easily gotten us all doughnuts by dunking it but noooo (i think he didnt just to torture us)
Kat was on fire....as usual :) She made two shots!!! Taylor made one....and Hailey played awesome....U GUYS ROCK.....GO BBALL!
~LiNdSaY~

Oh wait!
On second thought....our team was perfect.....we let the teachers win seeee since we are so smart and have HUGE brains....we decided that since these are the ppl that control our homework/uniform policy we should lay back a lil....ya thats right....we let 'em win.......

WE NEED LESS EMO POEMS!

ok so the emo poems are good but they are kinda getting on my nerves. we need something more than just emo poems even if that is pretty much what this blog is about. COME ON!!!

nother poem

When We Were Friends

when we were friends
we had our laughs
we had playful disses
we had fun

we meet a small bump in the road
it had tripped us all
so what?
we can still be friends

she apologized
i apologized
forgive us please?
we love you

it hurts to hear
that you abandoned us
because of a quarrel
please please don't?

we still love you
our triangular friendship
didn't reveal its power
until we lost one

now we want you back
we didn't treasure it enough
but it triggered a nerve
its called friendship

I've always thought of it
like a ring
round and round
drama goes

but the drama never stops the circle
it just keeps on going
recklessly
that is friendship

we are sorry
were both, extremely sorry
please come back?
we love you

is it that you don't care?
or we hurt you too much
are we important?
were all confused

please untie this knot
we know its not dead yet
if we all work together
our friendship, will never end....

-anonomieeees-

Trail of Tears

Please forgive us.
Please?
It was all my fault.
So don't blame her,
please?

Is there any way
we can just go and
forget?
I know it's hard,
but can we just try?

Bury the hatchet,
Forgiveness
Please
Please
Please

They say you don't know
how much you need someone
'til they leave.
I so learned
that was true.

You're hurt
I'm hurt
She's hurt
He's hurt
We all are.

And I know it's not gonna be
as easy as
holding hands
and listening to
Yellow Submarine.

And they say that some
people never forget.
You said that so
yourself.
It still hurts.

But give me a chance.
Give us the chance
to make up for what
we did.
I really hope you will.

You know who you are.
I'm glad you've read this far.
Think about it
Please
Even if only in disdain.

You have no idea
How hurt we are.
We have no idea
How much we may have hurt you
deep inside.

But can I say please
any more times?
Or will we have to live
thinking, remembering this
forever?

We love you.
We don't want to lose you.
We don't want to lose ourselves.
We don't want to lose your
friendship.

THE RESULTS ARE IN. THE WINNER IS....

YOU HAVE VOTED. AND THE RESULTS ARE IN. TOOTHPICK'S DANCE PARTNER IS....

A ROCK, WHICH RECEIVED A STAGGERING 22 VOTES. WE MUST LUV ROCKS.

COMING IN A CLOSE SECOND WAS LINDSAY, WITH 16 VOTES, WHICH WAS 30% OF THE VOTES.

IN THIRD WAS ME (IDK HOW I ENDED UP THERE THO) AND HOW DID I GET 9 VOTES?

TRENT CAME IN FOURTH. GUESS PPL DON'T THINK HE AND KASS ARE A CUTE COUPLE.

POOR ROSCO CAME IN LAST WITH ONE VOTE. PITY POINT!!!

YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME FOR VOTING SO MUCH. 52 VOTES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU GUYS ROCK!!! WE'LL TRY TO HAVE ANOTHER POLL ON THERE SOON. :]]

ILYYYY.
KITTY

add everybody?

I just realized something. Since we added Johnnie and Nirk (Colin) to the team, we kinda can't use T.A.L.K anymore. We have to (somehow) a J and a N. hmm. Can we ditch the T? Since he hardly ever posts and doesn't sit at our lunch table? OK OK Lindsay don't kill meeeee. jk.

Johnnie had a good idea. What if renamed this to Organized Chaos and added the whole lunch table? That's alot of ppl, but it would work. :]

PLZ comment. I need feedback!!!!

ILY
kitty

ATTENTION ORGANIZED CHAOS! (CONT.)

i tried to make a website and gave up. kathrine tried to and gave up. then i tried again, and gave up. so unless you want to try and make one yourself, were not gonna have one. so just stick with the blog.

EMO POEM

this... very deep and sensitive... impressive

Day on the Curb

Remember that day
When we were on the curb
Talking about the one that was
Right for us

I had been waiting for this part
The part where I could tell you the truth
And you would agree
With me

I say, breathless
I found that person
And you say
Me too

My heart skips a beat,
And I wait
I say
You first

I think I regret that.

My eyes stay focused
But I go deaf with excitement
But I can tell by the way your mouth moves, on the face I memorized
It wasn’t my name you had said

I sit there
And pretend that im happy
But what I want to say is
Any one got a band –aid?

My hearts broken
The shards are stuck
And I don’t think ill ever get em out.
This sucks.

by anonymous

intro to nirk (aka colin)

well nirk is pretty hilarious. we tease him all the time but i think we all love him like a brother. well first off,

age: 56478 hahaha!
hair color: pink
eye color: gold!
height: about 8.5 compared to us!
hobbies: ummm duct tape? does that count?

ummm well what to say about nirk. he is pretty smart. he...ummm...he.....oh! he is really sweet and like i said before, we all love him. but he sometimes acts like the annoying younger brother that pokes you and teases you. but you still love him right? well thats nirk. he is kind of obsessed with duct tape. (his ipod case is duct tape. yeah i know.) ummm he helps me play pranks on the blonde one. (haha we love you!!!) he also sympathesises (sp?) with me when we fall asleep in history class (one time he was drooling and i had to poke him with my pencil to wake him up!) he is really nice and is the only guy who really puts up with at least all 8 of us girls. so that gives him like 600 points on the cool-o-meter. so yeah here's to you nirk!

sincerely yours,
Johnnie <3 <3 <3

ATTENTION ORGANIZED CHAOS!

i had an idea, but i thought id make sure that it wasnt only me who thought it was a good idea.

so, here it is. i want to make a website. it would be like amy's blog except, we would be able to lock it so that only organized chaos could access it.
we could have a chat room and all kinds of cool stuff!!!
PLEASE POST ON YOUR THOUGHTS!!!
we can also talk about it at lunch tomorrow

~Nirk (thats colin for any of you who dont know)

a haiku about my neck:

my neck really hurts
my shoulders are lopsided
i hope it will stop

FAQ about the poor goldfish

The Goldfish
Ok so im going to answer the frequently asked questions about the april fools prank pulled yesterday on mr. aston (personally i think he was less shocked then we were)
Question #1:
Was it a real goldfish?
Answer:
Heck yes! You can ask my little brother Tommy, he won it at the fair like a month ago and it died a couple days ago....
Question #2:
Did Mr. Aston REALLY eat it?
Answer:
Heck yes! Well i closed my eyes at the last second, but the last thing i saw was him dropping it into his mouth, I'm pretty sure those in the front row can attest to him eating it.....also Mr. Aston really doesnt seem like one to lie about that sort of thing.....
Question #3:
How did Mr. Aston get a goldfish in the first place?
Answer:
Wellll.....it was my creation.....I mean my fault.....see I gave him a sandwhich, and inside it lay the dead fish....I would have never guessed he would have eaten it...well at least knowingly.
Question #4:
Was my little brother upset?
Well my lil bro Tommy (who happens to be six) didnt know his beloved fish (I have now learned his name was Darth Vader) was dead when I took it to school that day...so when I got home I got the joy of explaing to him that his fish had died and my math teacher had eaten it...actually he wasnt all that dissapointed, he thought it was kewl actually, however he was sad that he didnt get to flush it down the toilet....I reassured him saying that someday it eventually would get into the toilet.....haha....jk
Question #5
The question we all wondered....what did it taste like???
Answer:
According to Mr. Aston it tasted like chemicals...yumm....nothing like a dead fish marinated in chemicals with a slice of whole wheat bread.....-gags-

Ok thats it ppl.....if you have any more queastions just post a comment :)
OH and please remember...do not try this at home....u could get saminilla (sp??) and die.....
"FISH ARE FRIENDS NOT FOOD!"-Shark in Finding Nemo

P.S
Lets have a quick moment of silence for poor 'Darth Vader' the goldfish....who is eternally stuck in Mr. Astons stomach....with goodness knows what else.....R.I.P

2+2

It's nother depressing poem. :]

We fit
At least I thought so.
Like the puzzle pieces
That form a rainbow

We clicked,
Held hands.
Everything was
Perfect.

Then she came.
The subtraction sign
That undid
Our equation.

Is there another sign
That can fix
Redo, adjust
The value?

You divided my heart
And walked away.
The pieces multiplied
At the sight of you holding her.

The perfect puzzle
With the rainbow
Has dissolved
In the rain of my tears.


and nother one....

Gone With The Wind

I want take those wings and
fly To feel the wind
pulling on my hair Most of
all
to find
myself To let go of the past
and you To scatter the
pieces that are left of
my heart Don’t
tell me to stop It has nothing
and everything to do
with you Just take
her Enjoy
your time
with her While I fly
into the
unknown

LOVELESS

flirtatious disease

i wish he would notice me
he treats me as im air
i wish i wasnt see through
im so alone and bare

i wish when he was bored
he would break the ice with me
but i know im so boring
and transparent so no one sees

if i wish upon a star
i think it would be about all him
i think about him every day
but i think he dreams about her

she makes me jealous
she makes me cry
because of him
i feel like i have a disease

a cureless disease
its not contagious
but its killing me
the disease is called love

im going to die...
because of him..

WRITTEN BY ANONOMIEEE

Poor Tommy's Fish

Let us all morn the loss of our dear friend, Lindsays little brother, Tommy's, dead fish!

Written By a Guy

So I found this depressing poem the other day somewhere in my 34859234 files on this computor, and I remember that some guy that I knew last year made me pass it to one of my friends...but not before I copied it. But it's good. Read it, and comment plz. :]

A Day to Come

I dream about
a day to come,
when she and I
are one.
A day when
I will look at her,
and she will look at me,
and suddenly,
I can see
this day when she and I
are one,
will never come.
I'll look at her,
She'll look away,
to he who holds her heart.
-Anonymous

I'm just calling the author Anonymous to be polite. I don't think any of you know him, so I guess it wouldn't have made a difference if I put the name there or not. but just in case. :]
ILYYY
kitty

Model O.o

Guess who? You'll never know. So don't even try. If you really want to know.... you know that show called Gossip Girl? Those pics are her. Of course, by a professional photographer. What did you expect, an amateur? Jk.

Out of all of us, she's probably the most photogenic. Here's a hint to who she is:

She's one of talk. And she wears shoes. O.o
That's hard. Take a moment to think.

Enjoy the pics. If I find that people are using these for purposes that aren't even close to what they were meant to be (looked at), then they're coming off.

This is probably the most photogenic of all of us, so don't look too hard. :]

Enjoy.
Kitty